(This was years ago and I still am super curious. I always want to figure out what I took in the past just out of curiosity)

Sold as Xanax. I wasn’t knowledgeable to know if they looked like script or not, at this point in my life. And this was before fentanyl became an epidemic. I believe they were those big oval-rectangle white pills. They weren’t “bars” and they weren’t footballs.

I only remember buying 2, but after those 2 only, I blacked out immediately. My friend took a video of me at one point and I was nodding as if I was on heroin. Couldn’t remember 2 seconds into the past. Friend said I couldn’t form sentences or hold a conversation. I stayed blacked out for 3 whole days because I went and got 2 more. I remember coming to and seeing that I had crushed them and snorted them. During this time, I apparently went and bought more, accused the plug of trying to rob me…I stole my dad’s car and scratched it in the McDonald’s drive through, and I also drove 4 hours into another city far away, and I saw that I had texted my fiancé making absolutely no sense at all. I’m lucky I’m alive.

3 whole days straight, and I only have 3 memories of those days that lasted only a couple seconds. A flash of me in the drive thru, a flash of a sign on the expressway, and a flash of me driving to the smoke shop. That’s it. I have never experienced anything like it.

I have no idea what kind of drugs they press and call it Xanax, that’s not fentanyl. Obviously it wasn’t fent, because I wouldn’t be alive. I’ve only blacked out once ever, on alcohol. And even then, I could remember more than this.

Theories?