Tl:Dr: Anyone here manages to stimfap without destroying their lives? How do you do it?

Here there fellow dope fiends.

I wonder if there are anybody here that has been able to have their stimfapping habit under reasonable control, and if so, how do you do it?

I'm at the stage that I recognize that I have an issue with it, and I am working on understanding how it works for me, in order to possibly be stimfapping free (or accept that I can't, yet find harm reduction protocols).

How it all started?

Well at first I always had some kind of sexual compulsion / addiction. Stimfapping is the last one on the list, but also the one that made me decide it was time to figure this out.

I started with masturbation / porn at a young age, then as an adult, I was a very highly sexual person. After a breakup with a girlfriend, 5 years ago, I indulged into seeing escorts. I am now in a non monogamous relationship, yet with a bit of rules (aka twice escorts a month, no more). I deeply love my partner and she loves me and accept me with all my flaws.

Yet last year I stumbled onto porn while high of 3mmc, and it became like all problematic relationships: a love story that slipped progressively into uncontrolled pulsions.

I've fucked up big time twice. Being high stimfapping for 24 hours and chugging 2-3 grams up my nose.

Some might say it's rookie numbers, and they are, but still, I crossed some red lines doing it (not telling my partner about it, being high at work when asked to show up at the office on a normally remote day...).

Well, that all said, i'm working on it and I'm doing better: I see a psychotherapist that helps me work on the roots of these compulsive behaviours and I don't really fuck up anymore, because I don't do it on 3mmc.

I'm gonna take a full 4 months no drugs break in September, and I know I can do it. My issue is more about balance than regularity. I can spend months not doing drugs if I'm on "diet", but once I allow myself the possibility, it gets harder.

That said. I'm curious if, despite the testimonies on how stimfap will destroy you lives, some here have managed to have a balance in it, what's your rhythm? How do you do when a trigger comes in ?

Any tips for stimdick would help too, as my Viagra is not always enough.

Also how do you do it with regular stims (speed, meth?) I can't get hard at all on these, even with meds.

Thanks in advance