I‘ve been prescribed Pregabalin 150-300mg as if needed. Circumstances (of course) led to me using it pretty often in the last 2-3 months. It was 2-3 months of full socializing and business and I suffer depression and social anxiety, hence why I used more. When I came back home after this long busy time, suddenly I fell in a deep state of depression, probably the shock of suddenly not being active anymore.

So, the last 2-3 weeks I (very dumbly) also added Kratom and alcohol into the game. I used 150-300mg Pregabalin a day for the last 2-3 months for the busy time, daily socializing at big group business events. Then, the last 2-3 weeks I probably drank about 10 to sometimes maybe even 20g of Kratom almost daily. Then, maybe every 3rd to 4th day I drank like 1-2 wine bottles (also in the last 2-3 weeks). The Pregabalin was not daily anymore at this point, rather also every 2nd or 3rd day - in average.

Don‘t ask me, I am under medical supervision, I am knowledgeable of the risks mixing and mainly I am suffering without any success in treatment for almost 10 years now, and they tried many treatments, therapies and over 15 meds. I‘m playing this game for long. I‘m just looking for a little help rn. Addiction center or sth is not possible atm (even if I ofc have issues) and I don‘t think any withdrawal of these will be bad enough for needing to go to rehab.

That‘s why now I am asking if it‘s possible to use Gabapentin for some situation like this. I have enough Gabapentin left from years ago. I just want to find some order and only use one substance that‘s at least controlled. How much Gabapentin a day would be helpful for a situation like this and how is it best absorbed for best efficiency?

I really just don‘t want and can‘t (due to more side effects than good effects) use Kratom anymore and I surely don‘t want to drink on alcohol anymore before I feel normal enough to leave my apartment - plus it will definitely kill my liver, especially in that combination.

Also without these substances or before I started using Kratom Alcohol 2-3 weeks ago, it was the same, so no, don‘t say it was only caused by these and after I stop I will be good again: 1. I will 100% stop the Kratom & Alcohol 2. I will definitely not be different in feeling normal enough to get out or these terms of my condition after stopping. That‘s just me. My normal me for as long as I can think.