During friday-saturday i did around 10g of mushrooms and a lot of ketamine with weed which was the most intense trip i've ever had. I slept through sunday and today i still see tracers and static which is pretty uncomfortable. I still don't feel like i'm 100% back on earth and i'm really confused most of the time.

Is there a way to recover? I've had some suicidal thoughts but nothing too serious that would make me act on these thoughts. I feel like this post doesn't even make any sense but i have to ask for advice. I was able to make some coffee which did not help me at all. In a weird way i feel like that trip made me lose interest in the normal world and i would just like to keep taking ketamine and mushrooms but i know it will just make things worse. But if i can't recover from this, then why not?

I'm afraid of going to the hospital because i think they would just commit me to a mental hospital or something similiar. I just want to feel normal again.