I've been sober for awhile now but I still feel hopeless and depressed I think alot about my past when I was using and how great it was though my life was a mess then and my life now is arguably better but it feels like hell compared to when I was on drugs everyday and think about my relationships and friendships and all the fun I had which brings me a little happiness and nostalgia even though ik it was all "fake" I just feel empty now like my life had ended when I got sober and there is nothing left for me ik I can't go back on drugs or I will for sure get myself killed somehow and don't plan on getting back on anytime soon or even at all ever I feel trapped and alone most of my friends are gone and I haven't been with anyone in years it all feels like a joke it doesn't help im very out of shape rn not weight wise but everything else really and i have pretty bad hppd and doing any sort of exercise makes it flare up bad so i dont go outside really anymore and my anxiety is through the roof because of everything i could go on and on about how I feel I just need some advice sorry for the long post I wanted to get everything out