I went on a one month vacation to take a break from drugs. Low on behold my friend comes to my home. It took him one hour by bike, it was so cool seeing him.

So we smoked weed and then did 2cb the morning after. Awesome experience (his first psychedelic experience) for booth of us. Then when he was gone I said fuck it. So I do ketamine too and more weed. I watch porn and indulge in all my desires. Thinking about that one girl. I also took mdma right after. Then I felt like absolute shit. Dopamine completely empty. Gone. I wanted to sleep but I also didn't want to. I was even more depressed because I didn't feel the mdma kicking in. I thought that I had burned through my serotonin receptors from my past mdma use. Then I get up to roll myself a cigarette and slowly I get filled up with satisfaction. Like I had done something really well. So I roll my cigarette and all my worries go with waves of pleasure. I see myself perfectly now, I see all my faults, all the things I have to do. I know I'm under the influence but I know now what I am. Who I am. Cheers