Recently, I tried ketamine for the second time and had a strange and frightening experience. I was watching Young Sheldon on Netflix and consuming ketamine at the same time. I already felt the effects quite strongly. Suddenly, I was overcome by an overwhelming sense of fear and felt as if everything was fundamentally evil. The characters in the show suddenly scared me, and it's hard to describe, but it was as if reality was just a facade behind which a malevolent force was hiding, like in a puppet theater. I looked away from the screen. Next, a very strong negative feeling came over me, and my body was on the verge of a panic attack. I tried to breathe through it and out of fear, I bit and swallowed 100 mg of Seroquel.

What concerns me is this feeling that everything is evil or just a grotesque play. I can't make sense of it, nor do I know what my brain is trying to tell me. I also don't know how to handle such overwhelming feelings and thoughts during a trip. I just wanted to share this because it has been bothering me.