I've (32M) struggled with self medicating and recreational use since I was a teenager. And I've been in mental health and addiction treatment many times. Last year I got so unhealthy that my heart just stopped. I'm insanely lucky I was out walking my dog and a hero of a stranger saw me and started CPR. I've had ups and downs since then. I'm in a much better place mentally now, despite having treatment resistant depression and I've been getting tons of help. But I still use 2 to 3 times a week and don't see myself ever being completely sober. I've tried the abstinence only approach and it's always ended badly. Recently I've been doing a harm reduction approach and I've been doing a lot better. I'm scheduled to go to inpatient treatment next week and I'm not thrilled. I really believe that harm reduction is the only way I'll be able to live and I'm not ashamed of that. I really believe in "better living through chemistry"and this is obviously going to clash with the treatment center's philosophy. Do I keep my mouth shut and just try to learn something, or actually discuss the view I have? I don't want other people there to get the wrong idea from me and use it as an excuse to relapse. But I also want my ideas to be challenged and to maybe have some kind of "epiphany". I'm open to that. Any advice?