Drugs used to make me happy. Meth used to make me friendly alcohol and benzos used to help me forget my problems. But i can’t enjoy the high anymore. Everything makes me anxious and think soo much it makes me fucking sad. I don’t talk when i am high i just wanna hide at home. Last time even ketamine made me cry in front of friends. I had anxiety and depression since childhood, it gave me few diagnoses. Is it normal to get worse over time? Not only comedowns but even highs wtf? I am 25 days clean now and iam not sure if it is woth to stay clean. I am 20 i want to enjoy life again but i was honestly happy last time 2 years ago. I am just lonely sad and suicidal. I moved to new city but my personality will never allow me to find new friends. Damn i just don’t know what to do