I've used benzos, more specifically KSALOL alprazolam made by galenika. "street/fake xans". As someone who deals with a fair amount of anxiety (mainly social or general) and depression, benzos give me an amazing euphoric feeling. I react differently depending on where i am, what mood i am in before popping, what time it is, dose etc.

I've tried hash a couple times, and just like the other drugs, the reactions have differed depending on whatever. Most of the times, i just ended up (probably, if that was the issue) smoking too much and not really being able to enjoy it. I felt trapped and lost, paranoid or scared/stressed instead. I had two (or so) moments where everything felt quite good though. Sorta.

Tonight was my second time trying weed. Proper green weed. No brown bullshit lol. First time i tried it, i also drank alcohol and couldn't really tell what was a reaction of what. But tonight, i split a joint with a friend. Bout half a gram in it or so, mixed with some tobacco. We smoked the entire thing in one go, and just a tad bit more about fifteen or twenty minutes later.

In the moment it felt similar to hash. I smoked maybe half the joint, was a little confused/overwhelmed in the beginning. Could hardly think clearly etc. But after about twenty-thirty minutes i felt better. That's when i understood the hash was def 100 times stronger lol. After that moment, i felt talkative, calm and excited to go home. Not as anxious anymore.

I reached the fucking best part when i came home though. I feel super calm, super open and it all reminds me of the benzo effects. Both the immediate effects of them, and the afterglow. Like some weird mix. It's hard to explain, and I might just sound like some high weirdo right now, but istg, i feel really fucking great. Like, almost normal and sober just happy, satisfied and calm.

Does anyone get what i mean, and might even be able to relate? Weed and benzos seem similar lol. But I've also taken two (i think) mgs of benzo today as well as the weed. Might just be crossfading or some shit???