So I’m considering doing some meth tmmrw. I’ve done it once before, but it wasn’t on purpose. I like to take adderal once or twice per week, but I’m not prescribed it so I buy it off of two different dealers. I got my adderal tested; one batch came back positive for amphetamines, while the other came back positive for meth.

I have a friend and an acquaintance who do meth occasionally, and I don’t judge them or see anything wrong with it, but that wasn’t what I was looking to buy or take, so I gave some of it away to my friend. He said he hasn’t touched that shit in months and I believe him. I also have a very limited amount because I decided I’m not going to be buying from this person anymore, so once I run out, I run out.

Since I know which pills are real adderal and which ones are fake, I have only been taking the real ones, but sadly I ran out and I have to wait on my next paycheck to get more. I still have 2 “30mg adderals” (which are not real, they are meth pills and I’m aware of that.) I used to be afraid to try meth because I thought I would develope an instant addiction, but after trying it by accident, I realized that what actually scares me about it are the side effects.

After researching the side effects, I came across “meth-mouth” and knew that I definitely don’t wanna take this regularly or often at all, because I value my tooth and gum health, and I already have some gum damage from oral piercings (I can’t wear my toungue ring anymore :/ ). I’m also underweight and I struggle with insomnia. Ofc I get hunger suppression, and a bit of trouble sleeping after taking adderal, but these effects are so much more manageable. The hunger suppression and insomnia on meth is excessive to me, and it lingers!! It leaves my stomach completely upside-down and backwards, making it really hard to want to eat even foods I really like. I’m partially convinced I might die of starvation from taking meth tbh

When I took it, I remember thinking “wow this adderal is really strong.” I was able to pinpoint the two days that I took these meth pills on my calendar; April 20th and the 21st. It’s been almost 3 months, so time-wise, I feel like it’s safe for me to take, but BMI-wise…OOF. I’m 5’3 (160cm) and I weigh 95lbs (idk how much that is in Kg). I’m currently trying to gain some weight, and failing miserably.

I know that if I do decide to take some meth tmmrw, It has to be on the condition that I EAT more than one good size meal, and I already bought a full bottle of melatonin for when it begins to wear off.

But I want a second, third, fourth or 900th opinion on this. Don’t be afraid to tell me that this is a stupid idea and that I should just wait for my paycheck and go eat something (I need to be reminded to eat lol). But also don’t be afraid to tell me that just one dose isn’t gonna kill me and that I’m prolly overthinking this. Please help me stay safe <3