My family disowned me years ago (not for drugs) but have been trying to rebuild a relationship. Sometimes I feel like I’ll regret it if I don’t make an effort back but frankly I don’t know if I will ever care enough to make an effort. I have “friends” however most of them are moving on with their lives and nobody really comes around anymore. Some days get dark and lonely but for the most part I am okay with walking down a lonely path. I go to work, come home & sit alone in a 12x12 room that I rent and get high all night, talking to myself throughout the time. I’ve met really cool people from Reddit that help me feel not so alone. I’ve seen so many people walk out of my life. What more do I have to lose?