So I went through a period of doing weed, it didn't last too long maybe a month? Anyway, whenever I got high I was good. I laughed a lot, etc. Eventually Anyway, I stopped using it for like a year and tried other drugs, MDMA, Lsd, 2cb, ket, and then one night I took a high dose of MDMA and basically went very paranoid, and hallucinated, etc. I spent the next day hearing whispers of voices and being jumpy. I then took lsd like on the same day and ended up spending 12 hours paranoid, almost delusional, and started babbling to myself because I was having too many thoughts. Had a fear of losing control. Anyway, ever since this I've become very paranoid, and anxious, self conscious. I don't know why this is happening now. I was worried that maybe due to my prior prolonged drug use where my mental health deterioted (mdma frequently, high doses and then finally a traumatic experience and then another one the night after with a high dose of lsd where I relived the mdma experience (paranoia, etc) for 12 hours.

I was thinking about it earlier and realised that maybe the fact I'm feeling this level of paranoia and anxiety on weed, and the exact same feeling on lsd, and 2cb, and that night of high mdma dosage that maybe I've triggered an underlying mental disorder that I keep adding to everytime I do drugs like weed because I heard extreme paranoia and anxiety doesn't really happen often and could be a sign of a mental illness. Because I used to be fine on weed - then I take a long break (1 year) and went through a period of drug abuse and trauma and then went back to weed it could mean there's something wrong or could be if continued usage.

To emphasise, it's not just slight paranoia. It's like, paranoia which is on the verge of becoming delusional. For instance, the night where I took the high dose of MDMA and hallucinated included being paranoid that I was having a stroke, I kept having this weird "feeling" that my face had fallen to one side, and would continually try to measure each side of my lips/face to the other side and would panic when I would misidentify them. So I looked in the mirror and my fave had fallen (this was hallucinations due to the 800mg mdma dose I took). Then the next day I did lsd and had the same feeling. I'm experiencing the same feeling on weed. It's like, I feel that my face has fallen rn, then this leads to me thinking maybe I'm having a stroke or somethings gone wrong, then this will lead to me thinking other people are lying and maybe im actually having a stroke and they won't want to tell me due to ___. I have to keep measuring each side of my face. It feels like I'm on the verge of imagining things/tactile hallucinations. Feels like all the other times and the EXACT same feelings are lsd, 2cb and that.