I thought the addiction would be like crack. I managed to kick that no problem. I don’t know how long I’ve been at this binge maybe a week or so but it turned into full psychosis and I went to th hospital last night to get sedated. I was convinced that if I touched meth again I would die because I got the hemispheres of my brain reversed. Meth is a parasite that leeches into your brain and shuts down your body one function at a time until it kills your. It becomes your personality. It destroys you without realizing and even now that I’m back in reality I still feel like my inner monologue has been quieted. When I went to the hospital I thought I’d lost my ability to read and write and that’s what scared me the most out of any of this because usually I’m so good at it. That was my talent. I’m still here but there’s just something missing. I don’t want that psychosis again and to watch myself genuinely convinced of terrible things. I hate it. In a week I became 137 pounds.