Hi there, it's all in the title. I sometimes - but not always - end up redosing compulsively speed or 3mmc even when I initially wanted to stop at a certain time.

I tend to be anxious quite fast when I do not do what I was willing to (well if I overdo it a couple of hours it's ok).

But yeah, last time I had enough 3mmc at home that only willpower mattered, I ended up bringing 2.5 grams, not sleeping and finding out I had to show up at work (instead of being working from home) in the morning. This scared the shit out of me (being high at work is a red line I did not think I would step on).

Anyway, I took a break from it but I do love the chemsex part of 3mmc, or more generally I accepted that I also need sometimes to get high and not give a shit.

I am trying to learn a way to "contain the damages" when I decide to indulge in this.

These are my thoughts at the moment:

• if I'm doing it with my partner, being in a "responsible position" will help me resist the stupid redosing.

• never have more than I intend to do with me. But what if it's at my place? I though of freezing the rest of it so it's not snortable straight away

• putting what's left in a place that's a bit far (like a mailbox).

• using a friend as my "drug bank" and ask them to give me a specific amount.

Most of these solutions involve other people and I do not like that very much because well... I like to be a responsible person by myself lol.

I've also noticed that taking a bump of K when aiming to stop might help, but I only tried with speed and I have much better control with speed than 3mmc.

Any thoughts?