I honestly am not sure what to think. A while ago (two months) I tried Xanax which led me to take a lot of MDMA and then black out for 4 hours ( took more xans as in my extremely overwhelmed state I probably thought they'd calm me down but I don't remember taking them). For me that was a huge fuck up and I did take it seriously and did talk about it with a friend.

Yesterday I kholed for the first time ever and as I was slowly coming back to reality I decided to write him and talk to him about it (note: he smoked all day long for quite a while but is taking a break in the moment, he drinks heavy on parties and did try LSD, so he isn't really against drugs, or at least I thought). He essentially told me to throw away everything i had and to never write him about something like that again. Today I said hello and he looked at me like I had just shown him some heroin needles. We didn't talk. Later I texted him and he told me that the doesn't wanna be around people that continue doing dumb shit and that I'll probably do cocaine in a while. So there's that.

I do accept his decision, as its his right, but I don't really get it. It's not like I have a drug issue and write him every couple of days while I'm fucked up or do some other weird shit. Or maybe I just have a warped perception of drug use?

Edit: added extra info