21F Finally managed to get off Adderall after 2 years of abusing my prescription. I tried so many times to quit when I started realizing it was only dragging me down. The longest I managed to stay off it was for 3 months. Then I got my prescription back and started again.

I’m in the process of trying to ween off and at least take a break. I’m going to stash my entire script every month so I have a shit ton to either sell, trade for weed, or just do myself eventually.

I’ve been through trauma and stuff but I’m not trying to make excuses for my behavior here because I know life is tough for everyone and I’m not the victim. I feel like a fucking idiot because I am FAR from a junkie considering I have a full time job, I’m in school, and I have money saved and invested. I pay all my bills on time. I’ve always kept this shit under control and don’t let my tolerance get too high either. But yeah life is fucked up and this how I’m coping.

I don’t do blow often , only like a few times a year. But I will be buying a bag tonight (instead of popping a bunch of Addys) and doing it in my apartment while cleaning and share with my boyfriend. My guy’s stuff was pretty good last time so I have my fingers crossed. Fuck it we ball