At first I thought I’d never get addicted to anything caus I had good will power. I vape thc carts all day everyday fuxking up my brain and I’m not even 25 yet. But to clear out the way I’m unfortunately prescribed mirtazapine (antidepressant), Clonidine, and .75 clonazepam for sleep and I’m only 100 lbs male 5’5 pretty damn skinny but with muscle lol. I take clonazepam every day now so I’m very dependent. Please don’t lecture me on clonazepam, idc and I know the side effects but unfortunately my body needs it for anxiety. I also take 300-900 mg of Pregabalin few times a week in the rough days where I underslept. And I also buy hydromorphone (dilaudid) from my friend which comes in his script bottle and those hit nice. My problem is I’m worried I always mix downers. I’m not much of a stim person other than caffeine just because they fucking diminish my appetite which is the last thing I need. So this post is a mix of my crying for help and advice from a drug subreddit. I’m not sure if anyone can relate. But yeah I spend a lot of money on drugs lately and it is quite a lot especially for my income which is a problem. I have body dysmorphia anxiety a bad ADHD and possibly bpd and ptsd so that’s a little more info about me.