Hey all, I’d like to start this off by saying I’m not great with my words, so I’m going to try to make this all make sense but I apologise if parts don’t or are confusing.

Also, I know a lot of the things I’ve done are dangerous and not recommended, I have a drugs therapist who has lectured me time after time (for my own good) so please know I am aware of the implications of mixing drugs.

I’m a young male who has been addicted to xans for years, although about 8 months ago I got sober. Recently a lots been happening in life and I ended up relapsing a few days ago. here’s where my issue is: on Thursday I did about 2mg along with 7.5mg zopiclone, I used to have a very large tolerance although it seems that has completely gone now as I was woken up by my roommate a few hours after taking them as I was “breathing shallow and not responding”, whatever, I brushed it off as over doing it and slept it off, the next day I decided to have a few drinks, and that’s the last I really remember. I can tell by the empty packets I’ve done about 10mg in the past 2 days, along with some zopiclone and have also been drinking through out the days as well. My roommate (who is unaware I’ve relapsed) came to me today saying he’s booked a doctors appointment for tomorrow morning as he said I’m “completely incoherent” and he thinks I have a “brain tumour”. Obviously I’m aware this isn’t the case and it’s due to the xan use, but I wasn’t aware I was acting that unusual. I’ve been in and out of consciousness the past few days and have recently (later half of today) started feeling very sick and dizzy. I’ve only done 2mg xans today and a 7.5mg zopiclone but I can still hardly stand up nor form a sentence. Now, I don’t mind if this kills me, I’ve always know my addiction would catch Up to me eventually, but I’d rather know if it’s likely or not. Thanks.