First off I want to start off saying drugs tore my family apart. But I now I understand and why but also disagree if that makes sense? My parents chose meth and friends over their children. My siblings and I weren't "bad" but was picked off as the the bad apples because the kids we grew up with grew up with our parents. we didn't have parental guidance, maybe because we grew up in the time when kids had to come home when it was getting dark? But also if we told them where we were like responsible children they didn't worry too much. I started smoking weed around the 3rd or 4th grade. I can't put the age but I know the grade because we would walk with the older kids to school smoking a blunt every morning as we walked to school. (Reggi wasn't hard to get) we seen our parents sell drugs and do them. we knew it was wrong.

But we were kids and chose our decisions because we had to grow up quickly anyways. Our parents weren't around much we had to raise ourselves. But as we got older their habits got worse. We eventually all split apart due to them going to prison. But as I was growing up I always said I wouldn't do anything else but weed. But then I got an age where I said fuck it and experimented with other stuff I've done all kinds of stuff from coke MDMA,acid, shrooms, ketamine, alcohol and speed ball once. I know it may seem like I'm a drug addict but I was a person that liked it all but had self control. And that's where I feel drugs don't tear families apart the people do.

You can do drugs and have some self control meaning I'm going to do this amount and not touch it for another year. When you let the drug control you that's when you fuck up. Drugs aren't bad it's the losing control that is. Have some accountability and if you see yourself doing it everyday look at the people around you and if they aren't doing anything with their life and have nothing to their name then take a step back from them and recognize you are who you hang around. Sorry for the rant it's the coke (;

Edit sorry about the caption I didn't notice I put can instead of "Why"