To blow. Strangest thing, Ive always kinda 'meh' about coke. Could take it or leave it didnt really care.

I went to a festival last summer, one that Ive been to before. Like most rave type feativals, I did blow pretty steady for a week, just like last time when I went home and cold turkeyed and recovered. No problem.

This year however, I came home and about a week later (beginning of August) I bought an 8 ball. Not highly unusual but somewhat out of character. Ive done coke outside of party/get together scenarios.

Fast forward to now, early December. My work schedule is 7 days on/away and 7days off/home. Since then Ive bought at least an 8 ball every week home and this past week Ive gone through a gram a day. I always stop a couple days early for work as we dont have random testing but we do have post-incident.

Seems like an odd addiction yeah since I always stop every 2nd week but its become a compulsion and not an indulgence. Im pretty sure getting the plugs direct phone # is what was different.

So I guess what Im asking for is 1)Confirmation Im an addict and 2)Has this ever happened to anyone else? No issues with a drug for years and then suddenly one day you realize ita become a habit? and 3) Any advice on staying quit. I can stop doing it like I said, I have to for work. I just need to stay that way.