So I have experienced with a lot of drugs, but I’ve been into full blown addict territory for a year now. I just can’t believe I’ve been on it for so long. My drug of choice was a combination of many drugs, opiates on the morning (switching between various types depending on availability) then meth, then more meth, then some benzos to comedown, sometimes a lil weed or alcohol with the same purpose.

Aside from this ones I’ve been abusing other ones, crack sometimes, and more recreative ones like MDMA or 2TCB, and alcohol (the only drug I really feel I can control and develop to master, not even nicotine)

I’ve had sometimes where I’d stop, like some days or a week or two. And I had a couple OD’s, a time where I thought I was having a seizure and mild WD’s.

Recently I switched drugs cause I went out of benzos and meth, and I realized that Ive had become a true opiate addict, and thar it was really affecting me and my life, cause before I switched to only opiates (I kinda found the one that works with me, my “Mia cantante” lol) I was a pretty high functioning addict, managed to went to colleague and everything, although of course my grades got worse and I started skipping school more often, now I can’t keep my head up long enough to even shower sometimes.

I have decided to quit, but I’m loosing my mind with the WD, almost fucking suicidal, Im really scared of what is coming and I’m going cold turkey cause I don’t think I have the willpower to taper it.

It’s really difficult cause I feel like my life has no more meaning in it without the drugs, they’re kinda my purpose, and I don’t imagine a life without them. I also don’t like the idea surrounding addiction, and that I will be an addict for life.

I was wondering if any of you guys have any advice on how to be strong or how to kill the habit once and for all, how you managed your relationships (I feel I’m loosing a lot of my closest friends and I don’t know whether I should tell them how bad my WD is making me feel, I think it’s just unfair that I complain about a situation I did to myself), and some tips on how to get through WD’s without recurring to other drugs.

Thanks for reading, stay safe.