I’m posting in this sub since this sub tends to be full of people on hard drugs, so I want to see if what I’m doing is really that bad or if it’s manageable since I no longer mess with opioids or strong stimulants and am only doing milder drugs.

In the past I’ve had major issues with alcohol, along with strong habits on some other drugs. I’ve really matured and figured a lot of things out over the past 5 years, but recently have started drinking small amounts of alcohol along with low doses of dxm. I love this combo (in low doses of course- high dose combos of these can be dangerous due to respiratory depression).

I also take Kratom daily but that’s a long standing habit that I’m okay with and I think benefits me more than hurts me.

Anyway, over the past couple weeks I’ve been drinking only around 4-6 shots of fireball a day and have been combining with no more than 200mg dxm freebase. The problem is that I’m hiding it from my wife because she knew me back when I had serious issues with alcohol and would never believe that i could control it nowadays despite me having grown a lot.

I do question it sometimes because the dxm does mess with my memory a bit even at these low doses so I have avoided doing some things important to me because I realize I wouldn’t be able to fully take it all in, so Im just putting them off until I quit.

I think the reason I’m doing it so regularly right now is that I’m between jobs. I start my next job on the 29th and I do have some worries about being able to stop in time. If I were to dose the dxm at my new job, then I’m sure I wouldn’t be competent enough to succeed. I’ve dosed like that at my precious job, but only after I was familiar with everything.