To preface this: In January I’ve had a fall on ice that somewhat screwed with my thoracic spine and hip. I’ve since been in physical therapy and things have gotten better physically. Lately though, I’ve been dealing with random bouts of impending doom.

In the past couple of days I’ve been having dreams in a reoccurring location. It seems like a port town that would exist in the Pacific Northwest (never been). A town with a small “downtown” area, foggy with left over puddles on the roads, street and house lights littered across. It’s fairly quiet with the exception of cars passing by or the call of a mourning dove. It’s always evening, around 4–8PM.

I was in the front part of what I believe to be my apartment in this dream location. In a rocking chair, admiring the beauty outside. It’s unlike me as I really hate the atmosphere and wetness of rain. The inside of my apartment is fairly dim, with only the lamp of my living room providing spilling light. In the left corner of my room, out of the shadows appears this man. It felt natural, as if he was already there, waiting.

I didn’t question him, nor react to his presence. He just told me about my time—and after a swift internal bout of anxiety—I accepted his words in comfort, returning my gaze to admire the outside. Him beside me still, his lantern slowly flickering away till his presence withered with it.

The man that told me about time was in brown robe with his face covered by the hood’s shadow; carrying a staff with a lantern on top. The only thing that I can recall him saying is something about the number four. I don’t remember the length of time he uttered afterwards. Whether it was 48 hours, 4 days, 4 weeks, 4 months…

I awoke shortly after before going back to sleep. I checked my phone and it was around 4:08 AM.

I’m honestly a bit spooked but a little comforted. This isn’t my first time dealing with my mortality as I beat cancer three days prior to my 19th birthday (I’m 27 now). What would you guys make of it? I’ve already made an appointment with my doctor to check the concern of impending doom episodes.