So I’ve had this particular dream, a few times, same sort of premise but different places and people

(For context an ex boyfriend left me for a friend abruptly)

Basically I keep having a dream that friends are leaving me out, and in this dream “I” become extremely angry, only pushing them further away from me and making them become more hostile towards me too. Also these friends defend those who’ve clearly hurt me, which is probably what makes me angry in the dreams. In this dream I try to gain empathy as I am upset but only seems to anger them.

My current boyfriend in this dream (who loves me very much, treats me well and has never given me a reason to be worried) does not love me anymore, to the point he can’t stand me either. I was begging him all of the dream to tell me he loves me but it was obvious he was no longer interested in me and, funnily enough in this dream he’s also left me for a friend.

This dream just makes me feel so hopeless, and whenever I have variations of this dream I wake up, hugging my boyfriend so tight he won’t leave. Even though in reality, like I said, he loves me very much.

What do I do? Is it my insecurities of losing people and them turning their backs on me coming back?

In reality I did have an abusive boyfriend leave me, and my other friends subsequently supporting my ex and our friend, despite seeing how I was treated, even telling me off for being upset about it..

Anyway any help to these dreams, I get that horrible pit feeling of anxiety and like I should end it all again like I did at the time so help me stop them 😂