Another recurring violent dream:

I've never been able to remember my dreams, but the for the past few months I've been having 3-4 a night and remembering each one. They tend to be very strange (fantastical or just plain weird), sometimes cinematic (as in, camera angles, soundtrack, cut scenes), and have been mostly violent. As of late, I would say within the last 2 months, the dreams have started to focus on children. I don't remember them all but a few that have stuck with me*:

1: This one was cinematic. It was very long but the worst part was about a young girl (maybe around 12) who has anger problems and murders her father. Her younger brother (around 8) comes home and sees the body and the girl turns on her brother and beats him to death. It was very graphic. The girl ends up starving with the dead bodies rotting around the house.

2: I am at a very odd dinner party (possibly sexual, although it's only a vibe I get, nothing actually happens) and the hosts' children are missing. No one seems to care except for me and the hosts and apparently, they've been missing for a while. The topic comes up casually. I end up finding them in a hidden drawer compartment in their wall (think of the drawers in a morgue) and they are almost dead. Blue, shivering, very shallow breath. I knew that an hour or two later, it would've been too late.

3: This one I had just last night. There is a group of genius children (high school age) who are competing to be a part of an elite STEM program at some university that I work at. There are 3 kids that don't make it (out of no more than 10.) The 3 that didn't make it in have their throats slit. Not deep enough to kill them, so they are just walking around in pain and bleeding out. I try to find a way to help but I wake up before I can.

The longer this goes on, the more unsettled I am. I feel like these dreams are coming to me for a reason, but I just can't get the message.

*I don't keep a journal because I have really bad insomnia. If I don't get back to sleep right after I wake from a dream, I'm awake for hours.