Background: we met while I was on a trip. He approached me with a rose. He was the guy of my dreams. literally how I envisioned. He looked like an angel. We are from diff countries and we are friends now because distance was issue. His WhatsApp messages have been slow and Vice versa.

Dream: I’m in a girl friend’s house with a beautiful view to the city where the guy lives. Where only about two blocks away from where I met him. The sun is shining and traffic is heavy as usual from my view. I tell my friend, “can we please go to Andares (where I met him).” She says, “maybe later..” I say desperately “Please, let’s go, Im only here for today and you know I love that place so much. Please go with me.” Then I wake up…

When I wake up:

I wake up with yearning and longing to leave to that place as soon as possible. I feel like crying too. I’m driving to work in the morning and I view the comparisons from here to there. The traffic signs.. even the sun doesn’t shine the same. and I feel a deep sadness in my heart. His angel dust tortures me. I notice a pattern, I keep trying to date guys that have the same hair and softness as him but they don’t come close. One of them cancelled last minute and I told him about it and he said, “I’m sorry. They’re the biggest idiots. you know I wish I lived near you so I could earn your heart and treat you like the queen that you are.”