I had a dream about a dog I used to have back in high school. My mom and I used to live with my brother and his wife, so she was the wifes dog. We were in the basement of the house. I moved from their house when I got into college so but the dog was already a senior at that point. It wasn’t long after my brother and his wife divorced, being that I never got a chance to see the dog again. She was a cute little chubby jack russell who loved the world. Legitimately, one of the sweetest dogs I’ve ever known. I’ve missed her ever since I moved out. She was my pal and it saddened me that I never got to see her again before she died, especially knowing how much she loved me and always came to see me at every chance she could sneak down.

The dream started with my mother was standing at the basement doorway, she made her usual dramatic shouting but it was motivated by something jumping on her. I went closer to see what it was. I saw this dog, big fluff of a dog. Almost like the dog Doug from “Up” but as the size of a my mom. I saw what was happening and took over the position of where my mother was. This dog was a mammoth holding herself tall on my arms. I saw the biggest smile in her face. Golden fur that had her glowing the entire room. She looked entirely different, physically not any dog I would know but I knew it was Sadie, nothing had ever been more clear to me. I knew that was my dog. When I said her name she was so happy that I knew it, that I knew who she was. And I just remember smiling back at her so happy to see her again. The feeling that I felt was entirely unreal, it felt just like a moment where I was so overjoyed I could barely breathe. I felt such a foreign happiness that I can’t even measure how to say in words. We just stood there. I was crying as I was holding her in my arms just watching her so happy as if we were talking to each other with just eye contact and expressions. It wasn’t long after that when I started waking up. Slowly becoming more and more aware that I’m dreaming. I woke up crying, something that had never happened to me before. I usually never remember my dreams, the ones I do are hardly worth remembering. I’ve never felt a dream more ever in my life. It felt real, I felt myself saying her name and feeling all of that.

Feels nice to finally put it out there.