Hey all, This is my first time posting here, and i’m usually quite in tune with meanings of my dreams, however this one has me stumped and would love some advice/personal opinions!

I have two main dreams (nightmares) I remember experiencing frequently as a young child. These have started happening again (20y/o).

The first dream is this. Im walking into a field area with a stream running through, its very busy with people and dogs enjoying their days. I bump into my mum and brother, as well as a close uncle and aunt. I don’t remember the next part so i shall skip to the next bit. We have to walk through this “pool” to clean off for whatever reason. As i go in i misjudge the depth and fall to the bottom, as I try to get up I notice my brother standing on my shoulders (I remember as a child when I had this dream I would fight and fight and would eventually break the surface) I try to push him off and fight to get air however, since this dream has returned i’ve noticed I no longer fight. I stay still. I wait until it goes black. I can hear people around me screaming and crying and can feel myself getting dragged out but i’m not there. After getting up and carrying on there’s lots of shouting and blaming directed towards me which leads me to be violently ill in front of a lot of people who laugh.

I appreciate its a bit of a sporadic dream but peoples opinions/ideas would be really appreciated. I also have another dream that has returned but will save that for another post as I realise this has been a long read! So if you made it this far, Thank you :)