Hey everyone, I'm kinda new to interpretation of dreams but I had one last night that I feel, and was told in my dream to try and understand. I wrote it down when I woke up but thought I would post it here and see what you guys thought. This is what I wrote.

I was doing some kind of Native American ritual where we were in a circle facing outward, can't remember who else was with my other then it was white people. It had the feel of going to a temple on vacation. There was a Native American in the center with a fire in front of him and had his face and chest painted. It was symbols but I can't remember. He gave us all a stick and you had to so something, maybe concentrate on the stick and your spirit animal would appear. I did whatever the ritual was, facing out of the circle like everyone else and my spirit animal was a baby dragon (or a small dragon) with a glowing belly. Once you had your spirit animal you had to place your hand on it and focus again and it would guide you. I did that which made my belly scorching hot. The native American walked over and starting talking to the group, something about spirit guides that I can't remember other then it made sense. I began screaming and writhing and my belly was sliced open and all my guys fell out. Then I had a vision of being in a hospital saying goodbye to my wife and kids and the Indian was in the corner watching stoicly with everyone from the circle and also me. He explained what it meant but I can't remember. Maybe something about something I did and not being at peace?It was very lucid.

I have had a lot of stuff happened in life in the last few weeks. I am changing careers and start a new job Monday, also this week I was diagnosed with severe ADHD and PTSD. I'm also on new medication for that. The last 2 nights are the only times in several months that I actually felt like I was dreaming and especially a dream I can remember. I woke up feeling that there was a message for me and that I needed to find out what it meant. Like I was given the dream to interpret and figure out the message within. Anyone have any ideas about what this message could be?