I'm a 25 year old guy, INFJ personality type, in a fairly tumultuous time in my life, with an abundance of anxiety and hope for my long term future.

I'm in the last stages of recovery from a 5 year long battle with lyme disease, throughout those years I've had random spikes of intense panic where I am convinced the lyme will kill me. However, on the whole I am much more accepting of the idea of my death and tend to embrace it as another necessary step in my existence.

I have started my own small business and am nearly at the point of being profitable to the point where I can move out of my family's home, and I have begun to accept my own sexuality (bi) and started down a path of spiritual exploration and deeper connection with both God (in the christian sense) and the universe (in a pagan spiritual sense). All of this is withing the last few months, hence it not being a very stable time for me.

The dream that I had two nights ago is the most significant and yet non nightmarish dream I've had in many years. As most of my remembered dreams are intense fear filled sessions brought on by giving into sugar or wheat cravings right before bed, which I need to avoid while lyme is with me.

I dreamed of my future home, or what I want to be my future home. A very intricate underground complex comprised of domes (think monolithic dome company in texas) which are connected by tunnels, and the whole structure proceeds in descending levels of domes and tunnels until you get as far down as possible. The surface of the property is covered in a vast flower and vegetable garden, a bee farm, solar panels, and a prop shed/cabin/small structure to keep people from intrusively wandering onto the property as any entrance to the underground home will be concealed, and it needs to be clear the property isn't a park or uninhabited.

The tunnels connecting the dome structures are all transparent and you can look out into a small circular area carved out of the rock that the tunnel occupies. Some of the areas will have mushroom gardens, others will host sculptures or shrines, and some deeper down will hold a very large supply of cheese.

Natural light will be provided to the shallowest underground domes through windows in the ceilings that are placed throughout the property yet obscured by plants, gardens, rocks, etc. The deeper areas will have artificial lighting and the deeper you go, the less time it is assumed one would spend there during the day, and be relegated to activities/purposes accordingly.

At the very bottom of all this (though I don't know how far down nor do I know how a water table has been avoided) is a small tomb. A simple square room carved out of the rock, which is large enough for two caskets, but the only easily visible thing to me as the dreamer is a small alcove in the back wall. The only light comes from candles as the electric lighting stops at the end of whatever stairs lead to this place. In the alcove is my skull. Not the movie image of a skull where the jaw is still attached and all the teeth are flawless and white, but my skull with the various dental work, imperfections, and cracks that I know it to have. It stares outward illuminated by faint candle light, and placed between the upper and lower jaw so that the mouth is partially open is a very large emerald. It is not a raw gem but neither is it cut in such a way to show off lots of facets. The dream ends with my skull with the gem in its mouth staring directly at me, centered as if I am eye level with it. That image remains unchanging for what feels like a very long time, and then is at the forefront of my mind when I wake up.

I don't know what it could possibly mean, I've never thought long or hard or intricately about what kind of home I want in the future as I figured that was too far off to meaningfully plan for, and while I don't have a huge fear of death in my day to day life it would be also incorrect to say that I want to die or am in any way obsessed with death in general. And my favorite kind of gem is typically reddish or golden in color, I don't even like emeralds as they don't look good on me.

I'm sure there's relevant details that I have forgotten to add, but hopefully I will think of them during discussion. Thanks for helping figure out this weird mess I've had in my head the last few days!