Hi. I'm someone who's always suffered from depression and anxiety. I also experience frequent night terrors (most nights), where I'll wake up moaning, crying or screaming.

Sometimes, I won't remember the night terrors at all (the dream or that they happened in the first place), but I do remember a good majority of them. I started having these dreams when I was 19. I'm now 26. I thought they'd eventually stop or go away. They haven't.

Almost every single night terror I have is about me being sexually assaulted or raped. The worst part is, I can actually "feel" everything that's happening to me. Like I can feel the touch of the person assaulting me, or I can feel an excruciating pain in my body. When I wake up, I often feel extremely distressed, because I can still feel the perpetrators hands on my body, like I've actually been touched by someone. It really freaks me out, because it's not all in my head, but also physical.

I've never been raped (to my knowledge), but I have technically been assaulted. I've also had a pretty intense fear of men for most of my life. I don't date men at all, and the only men I interact with are family members or my best friend.

I'm in therapy, and I've brought these dreams up with professionals. They're sympathetic about the dreams, but they're at a complete loss what to do about it.

Does anyone have any interpretations for me?