Hello all. Allow me to get at least something off of my chest.

First off, I understand that none of you know me. I understand that I am a nobody. I really do. However, I feel like I am entitled to share my progress (or lack of) if I wish to.

I lack the care to continue forward, but do it anyways. The combination of NoFap and deleting social media (7 days clean of both) has turned me into a hollow shell. You’d expect things like these to work. They don’t. I wonder when I’ll see progress.

I will say that I have found an “accountability buddy” in a server of mine that has helped me stay on track. I do the same for him. It’s a nice dynamic.

I start my sophomore year of college in the next week. Not looking forward to it. My anxiety has gotten significantly worse since the summer began. I can barely leave the house without getting the urge to yak. Oh, yea. Also I’ll have to see the girl who cucked me and the guy who she did it with (who used to be a close friend of mine). Small schools are aids. I should’ve expected this.

I’ve been doing my best to connect with others. It’s just fucking horrifically difficult considering I am an autistic loser.

Brothers. If my mind is in the right place, how do i continue forth with at least a little bit of hope for the future?