I find myself very overwhelmed lately but especially today as I didn't sleep much or well last night. I'm feeling a lot of pressure both professionally and personally.

While I do go to therapy I don't feel like I can open up and talk about what I'm feeling outside of that environment. I'm used to being a caretaker or the one in charge (at work) and while my brain so desperately needs a break I feel like I don't know how. I completely tense up even when I'm offered to talk it out.

Basic things like remembering to eat or drink water seem out of control. And I don't even want to write a to do list as I'm afraid I'll spiral.

I don't want to be a burden. I just feel like there aren't any areas of my life right now that aren't hard or scary.