We were together for almost three months, and he ended things tonight because he's going on a trip for a few weeks and he's been really busy lately; his concern was not having enough time to spend with me. I really enjoyed our online dynamic and he was an amazing daddy. It sucks that of all things time was the issue. Personally it's easier if there's some sort of dealbreaker or incompatibility that forces an end. I'm just devastated by how sudden this was, we both knew it wasn't going to last forever, but I never expected this. It's been hours and I every time I manage to stop crying and calm down I start crying again and it's giving me a headache. I never imagined it would hurt this much. A part of me loved him but I was too afraid to say it, and now I never will.

If this was any other night I'd be okay to cry until I fell asleep, but I have a huge test in the morning morning and I can't seem to fall asleep (it's 2:30am). Even snuggling with my comfort blanket isn't doing the trick. I need a little encouragement to get through the night, survive my test and then comfortably process the loss once I'm free. Pet names are welcome, I'm particularly fond of sweetheart and little one/ little angel.