I really shouldn't have any reason to complain but still. Even though i'm single now i've dated plenty and have been in long term relationships, I have lots of friends where I live who like to hang out and we enjoy hiking, kayaking, camping, etc or just staying in and chatting or gossip... I took a huge trip last year with my best friend backpacking through Europe and literally had the time of my life. It was amazing. Then when I got back I missed it and wanted to be out exploring again so I took smaller trips to Vancouver and Montreal. I don't know if it's just a permanent wanderlust or if i've just been spoiled by the experiences but something has felt missing for a while now. It could be where I live in a small town in the sticks and my family is in another state but and I enjoy the peace and tranquility. I wouldn't be able to think straight if I lived in a major city and I don't know how people do it. Maybe I just don't understand the 9-5 life. I get home from work and feel upset every single day and it could just be that nagging feeling that i'm wasting my life making other people rich and not learning anything in the process. Or maybe it could be there's a person out there right for me with the deep connection I crave that I haven't met yet and probably never will. Because i'm spending my life 9-5'ing it in a small town. I don't know. This was a mess sorry not deleting.