Hey all! I was hoping to get some advice from the fantabulous denizens of the DnD subreddit on this issue. I'm feeling really frustrated in generally and sad about potentially missing out on DnD for a while... for some context:

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I've been my group's forever DM for a few years now. We previously played online together but after two of us moved back to the area near our hometown after living upstate/out of state, we started playing in-person. My spouse and I had our own place, two of our players (Jason and Ron) lived together in Jason's parent's house 20 minutes north of us, but nobody else had their own space. We do live a bit out of the way for everyone, Jason married our other player Hannah and Ron is still living with Jason's parents. We've lost one player and added Ron's girlfriend Helen since we stopped playing 3 months ago. When I was DM we had issues on both sides, I worked nights Mon-Fri 9 PM to 7 AM and the other players would double book themselves and not let everyone know until the day of or day before. That being said, we had a lot of fun when we did play and we've been friends for 10 years.

Now Jason and Hannah have their own place, everyone seems to finally be on the same page as to when they are available and wanting to hang out every week. But I'm afraid I won't be able to participate when they want to start the campaign in a few weeks because I'm about to give birth to my firstborn child. The group planned the start date for the campaign just before my due date (which they've all known about for months), and they expect me to either leave the baby at home (we're breastfeeding), or bring the newborn with me... ~30 minutes north-east to their apartment...

I guess I'm feeling ?abandoned? by my friends for the first time ever. I know I'm entering a new chapter in my life, same as I did as the first to get married and move away from home. But it's hard not to feel some type of way when for months I've been trying to get everyone to hang out and start a new campaign or play some one-shots before the baby gets here. And now they're suddenly available, planning to begin a campaign right before my due date, and want me to be there starting at session 0? I totally understand not wanting to commute 30 minutes to our place, I don't really want to commute up there to be at their apartment that much either. But I also don't know if I can logistically bring a newborn with all her essentials 30 minutes from home and I feel like my friends don't understand how hurt I am or how much it feels like they just don't "get it". AITAH? Am I being unreasonable? How would you make this situation work if you were in my shoes?

I love playing DnD, I've been playing 3.5e, 5e, and other tabletop RPGs for 10 years now. Before all this went down while everyone was still being super flaky I considered finding a new, more local, group just so I could play. But I worried about 1) getting involved in a new group, the old group sparking back up and having to choose to stay or leave my group to rejoin my friends, 2) hurting my 3 best friend's feelings by joining a new group and not being available anymore, or 3) getting into a new group and then feeling or being made to leave b/c newborn

Any and all advice, reassurance, or reality checking is greatly appreciated!

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