Hey everybody,

Dealing with a potential narcissist. She's not been diagnosed but there are definitely signs. I said in December I wanted a divorce, she's sick and not working and is refusing to leave or pay me back for any kind of rent. I'm going to end up needing to break my name on the lease most likely. It came to a head today, she again asked if I want to try couples, and then when I said not with the intention to work it out. If we saw one to process our relationship that would be one thing, but i said no. Then she suddenly asks "would you care if I moved on then" like she's suddenly going to what start dating in her condition? Why ask it that way? So I said screw it and took her off different subscriptions. She said I was destroying her life and that she didn't mean it that way she just meant that she loves me and needs to know if she should keep holding on. How does she not know it's done? I keep saying so and she keeps acting like I'm suddenly leaving. I gave her a 3 page letter outlining all the reasons why I can't do this, and it isn't enough. She kept calling me and guilting me and saying that I'm ruining her life. Like come on, the subscriptions aren't that expensive. I just need advice. How long should I block her? Should I even talk to her anymore? Can I ever go back to the apartment for my sentimental items? Or will she just throw everything I like away. I took photos before leaving, it's just an apartment. But I am so over everything. I'm at the edge right now and I'm so tired of it all. She is going to not take a single ounce of responsibility. She said she's applying for a job and idk if that's even truth anymore. Like she's probably breadcrumbing me to think she's starting to be more independent. I guess I'll have to just initiate the divorce on my own. I hoped we could work together and avoid legal bullshit. But who knows if that's even remotely possible. I'm never marrying again after this, no way in hell. Marriage is a sham and a shackle and it's a shit institution. This has been bullshit for so long. She just expects me to what keep paying indefinitely for a super expensive apartment?? Without living there?