Marriage 20 years, I struggle with cli ical depression and high anxiety. Things were good until about 12 years ago. To deal with the above I drank like a fish. Hiya a really low spot and realized I needed to stop. I did, but damage was done. Separate accounts and splitting bills. And she no longer trusted me. Fast forward to now, I spent from then to the split trying to regain the trust and get the monkey off my back. Along the way tried to kill myself twice. I'm not by any means blaming her, but it takes two. And she would check out until she needed something. Which I mis-read as her understanding how I felt. Now that we have split she is telling g me she wa to to work on things. What is giving me pause is the house is behind and she asked me for money to stop the auction. I did it because of our kids. She has been coming around and texting me again. I think this is just to get me to back because of the house. There is more to say about our relationship but you get the jist. I don't know how what to do........ My depression and anxiety has me going to the gun safe, but I know that is not the way to handle this. I don't know how long I can hold on. I am talking with a therapist who is aware of everything. Getting others opinions is good, right?