All,

I'm going through a really bad divorce (ugly). My ex has moved out and has a new boyfriend immediately and lives 2 minutes down the road from me. They have my daughter and for going on now 7 months I️ haven't been able to see her or spend time with her. I️ am doing everything in my power to not think about it but it is impossible, I'm not a very social butterfly so it's hard for me to get out and meet new people. I️ feel betrayal and anger only, I'm not even really sad I'm just pissed off beyond belief and want to rip the new boyfriend apart. I️ have a constant feeling like I️ was replaced and she is so happy now and I'm stuck and miserable. I️ don't have any money since this divorce has literally cost me around 40k so far. It feels like a nightmare and I'm trapped in it, it never ends. I️ wake up thinking about it, I️ go to bed thinking about it I️ go to work and all I️ do is think about. I️ can't make the thoughts go away and I️ know she probably hasn't even considered what I'm dealing with or even cares that I'm going through it, I️ mean why would she? she has a new man occupying her time and gets to spend all her time with our daughter. I️ have thought endlessly about killing myself and weighing the pros and cons to being here. I️ just feel hopeless, I️ feel like life isn't going to get better and I'm forever in this hell.