Lately I have been having the overwhelming feeling that I was never enough and that I wont be enough for someone ever. I (F31) filed for divorce in Feb from my husband (M34) we had been together for almost 12yrs. In our state we could have had this over in May. I actually signed the papers at the beginning of May. He refused to sign and then got his own lawyer. Now a month later and we aren't any closer to being done. With it being drawn out longer than I want is dredging up all these old feelings of worthlessness. I'm trying not to dwell on things, but it's so hard. I dont want to throw myself into spending time with people just because I feel lonely. I want it over because I don't feel like I can move on until it's done.

I'm frustrated because I was giving him everything he asked for but that wasn't good enough. Now I just want everything I'm entitled to and everything done above board. I'm trying to be happy all the time but most of the time I just feel broken.

Thank you.