We have officially filed yet but decided we are getting divorced. Now everything is separate lives, dont ask me what im doing, you don't get to know. Well all I asked for was to be told if they were going to stay out all night so I can make sure all the doors are locked. Im now staying on the other side of our long house where I can't hear if the furthest door is opened. Its typically kept unlocked. I know they want their own life now and that life style is pretty much being gone all the time. Am I asking to much to be told hey im not coming home. Wanting to be safe, maybe knowing nothing had happened to them. We might be getting divorced but I still care about their safety.

I can't just turn off all those years of strong emotions just because we made this decision. Im feeling like im being pushed out of the home before we finalize anything. Im breaking and not allowed to break. I want to scream but have to keep it together. I just wish this was easier and that I had people to go out with that weren't just my family. Im breaking and crumbling. I dont know how to life now.