My situation has not changed, I am still cohabitating with my wife who is still legally my spouse and coparenting our two girls. She continues to have her affair with her “soul mate” who she sees infrequently for an hour here, to do what I have no idea. She loves him so she says and is waiting for him even though to my knowledge he has not told his wife about his infidelity and his love for my wife and she’s not let his 4 or 5 kids my wife tells me she has that dad loves another woman.

I know I should not be here, I should have pushed her out and started the divorce but I can’t get myself to do it. Emotionally I’m stuck. I feel like a wounded soldier trapped on the battlefield who can’t get away. I still love her, I want her back, I want her to Change her mind and be a couple and a married family again. I feel So lonely with out here that even 6 months after finding out about the affair I’ve not healed at all. This love she has, he wants to stay at home another 2 or 3 years before he tells his wife.

I’m just an emotional mess.