Caution: Deep thoughts ahead. So I've never really talked about this publicly on social media before, but I've had a lot of time to think with this quarantine period. Divorce sucks. You dont truly realize how alone you feel, especially at night. I put on a happy face because I'm a strong, independent woman... but I admit I lost some of that woman when this happened. I miss sleeping next to someone at night. I miss having a partner in crime. I miss laughing at inside jokes. I miss being able to look at my spouse and they knew what I was thinking without asking. I miss cuddling. I miss having a night in cooking dinner and watching "our" shows. I miss having someone to lean on when times get rough....like now. I don't mind living alone, but it sure would have been nice to have a significant other to weather this storm with during Covid. It gets incredibly lonely spending your days and nights with yourself for over a month now. I appreciate everyone who has reached out and Facetimed, that really means a lot.

I sometimes wonder if I will ever be good enough for someone again, or if my story was already set in stone and this is my new single life forever. I'm a hopeless romantic at heart so I have a little bit of faith left in there....but not much.

If you read this far, thank you. It feels good to get this out. ❤