Started off the day already down. Wife (7yrs married/12 together with 3 kids (11, 5 and 9mths)) and I have our first counseling session this afternoon. She already has one foot out the door and I think she is done. So her going to counseling i think is her opportunity to tell me in an environment that is neutral.

So o get to work and she texts and asks what should she expect. I tell her that you get what you put into counseling. And asked if she even wants to go. She responds with idk but she "maybe feels like she came to a decision". I said well if you don't show up then I'll have my answer. She said that she would go but doesn't want to give me any false hope. And that it would be good to talk in that setting.

Fast forward 30 minutes. I get a text from my mom saying my dad is going to the ER. He has been recovering from bladder cancer 2 years ago. Fast forward 5 hours. I get a call from my brother stating that the doctors found 20 graped sized spots on my dad's stomach and only explanation is cancer.

So here I am sitting in my car outside the counseling office that starts in 30 minutes... Fuck me.