So me and my wife sorry ex-wife have been together almost yrs married almost ten. And up until this past the month longest we have been away from each other is maybe 5 days. We were engaged after 2 weeks .I know but we were the exception I guess to damn stubborn or prideful to admit defeat.I still love her and God help any man who mistreats her and yet I found myself in a marriage were we slept next to each other it wasn't abusive she never cheated I never thumped her we didn't physically hurt eachother but if your having the same argument at 40 that y'all were having at 30 than maybe you wasted your life.And I hate to say it but we get along better away from each other. Well there's the recap now to the topic so we finally said screw it and I went inside and we laid on the bed and we'll held eachother and kissed a bit and we'll you know where I'm going old habits die hard . But....but well it was awkward it never was an issue before makeup sex is the best but we had too much of that and we ended up just both passing out no sex just two people I guess our bodies were used to eachother because we both fell asleep and that was the first real rest I think I've gotten in a month does it get any easier I don't want to be divorced yet we can't stay married do I need to find some new bed to lay in some pretty distraction I haven't even thought about sex since I packed up and left why do I feel so empty my life with her is a headache and I know it's been less than a month but I feel like I've lost my identity I was a husband and a faithful one at that.