I sent my ex a text about something else entirely and found out in that conversation that he’s filing the papers. I knew the day was coming, we’ve been officially separated but still living together since April. But just seeing that word in his message crushed me. I’m still in love with him. I thought maybe I was ready to talk to other people at one point but I’m just not. It isn’t fair to anyone else if I’m still in love it’s my ex. Not to mention the thought of being with anyone else freaks me out. I’ve been with the same man for over 20 years. 🥺 I just feel so broken today. I had a good cry earlier, now I’m cleaning while I listen to music to try and clear my mind.

The whole process is just rough and confusing. Especially when the other half is ready to move on and you aren’t. 😞