I’m trying to see the good in this man but I’m to my wits end . Between the intermittent cheating and pleading with me that he wants to change and needs help, the coming home to him unshaven unshowered scrolling and playing video games, to the complaining about his dead end retail sales job after begging him for years to go back to school or push harder to try to hustle to open his own business, to the tantrums when I beg him to help around the house and now I have to tiptoe because he has an attitude from begging him to put the laundry away ( already folded by the way) , to the weeks of pretending to get better just to fall back into his old habits I’m just so done. Sex is occasional and typical, roll over and done. He refuses to go down on me because of an outstanding neck issue that he has had for years that he never did anything to get help with besides when I pleaded for him to see a chiropractor . & when that got too expensive he started going to massage parlors, just to end up and find out that he ended up getting blown jobs from the women there so no more of that either. He complains about his life but does nothing to fix his issues but insist he needs support from me. I have like no interest in emotionally supporting a grown ass man.

I want to divorce but I feel so financially trapped because I decided to go to a demanding grad school in a major city. Now I have to do 50 hours of school work and come home every day to be extremely irritated with a man child. Just venting guys. Our lease ends in august I plan on working my ass off this summer to save up and move out. I just so bad ; wish things were different. I see so much potential in him but it’s constantly being proven to me that it’s just an imagination that will never be realized as he has done nothing to show me he is more than just a loser.