Please tell me things will be ok. My wife asked me for a divorce about a month back and i am devastated. I have not been my self for years now so i dont blame her. But right now i feel lost, like i cant move forward, im stuck. I dont see how i can get over a girl i have been in love with for 9 years. We did so much together that everything reminds me of her.

To make matters worse she tell me for then last month she had started talking to one of her ex’s and she really likes him. Even with this we had been getting along ok for a couple weeks even went out to eat twice and laughed, made jokes at each other and ate food like we used to. But then she went on what i thought was a girls trip to Florida but what i found crushed me. Our “sex” drawer was cracked open… so i opened it and all our lube was gone along with some sex toys. I had noticed earlier in the day that there was lingerie on the floor of the bedroom but she swore to me they were just in a bin under the bed and she was putting them away. I told her I trusted her. And went on with the day. Well i went to her lingerie bin and half of it was empty. So she was actually packing it. I would say this is not just a girls trip.

I now know i have to fully let her go, cant be friends, stop talking except about the divorce. It causes to much pain when i hear new things pop up like this. But why is it so hard to!?!? I just cant , its like i am holding on to one little string.