I(46f) been “separated” but living in the same house as my STBXW (42f) for about 3 months. We live in a very small town, with not much to offer. She is moving out, to an apt that I can see from our house. I plan to stay in the house with our child (10m) until we can figure out what to do with it.

Recently I’ve been contemplating a move. Where I’m considering moving is about 3 hours away, across a state line. I’m sure my son will probably stay here with her, see me on weekends, holidays, summers, etc.

My thing is, I want a partner. I want someone to love and be loved, grow old with. I’m just not going to find that here in this town. Being around her is too hard. She has no emotion besides being annoyed with me when I cry, or display sadness.

I’m feeling very conflicted with leaving my child. I know families do it all the time. I feel like having him watch me cry every day isn’t good for him either.

Advice?